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My Love
Jun 20, 2005 14:10:10 GMT -5
Post by darkangel13 on Jun 20, 2005 14:10:10 GMT -5
i no! im sooooooooo excited! i cant wait!
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My Love
Jun 23, 2005 13:27:04 GMT -5
Post by Elegey on Jun 23, 2005 13:27:04 GMT -5
ummm isnt it like today?
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My Love
Jun 30, 2005 9:22:53 GMT -5
Post by darkangel13 on Jun 30, 2005 9:22:53 GMT -5
yes. it was.
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My Love
Jul 14, 2005 19:43:30 GMT -5
Post by Xombie on Jul 14, 2005 19:43:30 GMT -5
Yeah what the crap Michael. What is going on with you. A bag of lies is all you are isnt it!? DO you like stabing peoples hearts?
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My Love
Jul 14, 2005 20:48:20 GMT -5
Post by darkangel13 on Jul 14, 2005 20:48:20 GMT -5
ok, we're getting a little angry on here, rnt we?
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My Love
Jul 15, 2005 4:48:11 GMT -5
Post by Elegey on Jul 15, 2005 4:48:11 GMT -5
Yeah but thats just because i cant justify the way i am and they dont like the way i am and so i either change and keep my friends by conforming to their standards or i be myself and remain alone wow somehow i dont think ill get much from this
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My Love
Jul 15, 2005 12:47:27 GMT -5
Post by crosswoman on Jul 15, 2005 12:47:27 GMT -5
I think you are only alone because you want to be. You actually chose to be in more cases than one. You dont have to be alone if you are considerate of others and actually care how you treat them. It is not that you "act yourself" . It is that you are only begging for attention to yourself and do not care who you hurt along the way. The tarots can tell you that. The pity parties have to end eventually... Life is too short to be that way. I want to live and suck out the very meaning and essents of life. So that when I die I will not look back at my life and discover that I had not lived.... Are you living now ?? I do not think so. I think you are so wrapped in what you can get from others that you forget that others need to recieve something from you in return. Remember as the tarots say you chose your destiny, not others. You chose your attitude in life not others. Life isn't how others treat you it is how you treat others. Life is not what circumstances you are dealt it is how you deal with what you are dealt. One man once said if the world could throw all their troubles in a big pile and take only what they wanted, everyone would take back everything they put in nothing less and nothing more. We all have troubles, but those troubles can work blessing in life. For example, when I had gotten thrown out of the house by my own mother at a point in my life I met sage stranger and we had been driven to be closer together than ever, if foreseeker's mother and sagestranger had never divoriced, I would have never had the opportunity to marry sagestranger meet foreseeker, and had two very special children (three including foreseeker in my life). Was the road hard to travel in the beginning yea you bet. But the wise find the diamonds in the rough. I'll share one more incident in my life, I had gone out with a guy off and on. I met him when I was in high school we would go back out off and on until I finally had enough and broke it off with him. Two years went by and I never heard from him again. Then I did meet him again and guess what, yes... we went back out once again off and on (it wasted a lot of time in my life I felt like at that time) however on the day we broke up (we broke up because he did not want to tell his mother that we were going out, so I said fine we aren't and I do not want to ever go out with you again). He asked me to meet him at Hardee's in Monterey, I not really wanting to... did. He ran late. In the process, I circled the HArdee's restaurant in Monterey. I saw an old friends truck parked so I thought I would slip in and talk for a while. When I pulled up, I saw another guy with sunglasses grinning at me (kinda scared me a little) I went to back up but then my friend came out of hardee's and I stayed and chatted a while. Then.. dorkus came in and we said our good byes and I had officially called it off with the guy. Never understood why I was there. I was heartbroken and depressed, my mom said don't worry I know you'll get a call soon (meaning from another guy). Sure enough the guy that was grinning in Monterey, that lived in Cookeville as I did, that knew my friend I said hello to, called me. Here is the kicker the guy that called was SageStranger. I guess you know how the story ends... I could have continued to let life get me down actually I could still hate the guy that drove me crazy..but ..if it wasn't for him I would have never met SageStranger. So once again blessing from a negative thing. You choose how to deal with life you choose your outcome as helpless as if feels. I heard a quote with my husband (SAgeSTranger) "Life is not measured by how much you breaths you take, but by how much it takes your breathe away." Live your life, no one else will. Treat it dearly, no one else could, but don't forget life is richer when you share those moments with others and smile with others (how ever scarey it may be ) make friends and charish those moments because you never know how long those moments will last. Have no regrets. These teenage years are the times you will have the rides of your life. Your biggest joys and your biggest regrets. You chose which one will be of the greater.. I have said my peace.... Crosswoman
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My Love
Jul 15, 2005 20:45:06 GMT -5
Post by Xombie on Jul 15, 2005 20:45:06 GMT -5
Yeah. Michael you know I cared about you and still do. You know Charity cared about you and, she may be very angry at you right now, but she still cares about you. I have no idea what made you want to miss all that up. You had it good. You just ether, didnt care, or couldnt see it that way.
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My Love
Jul 15, 2005 20:46:16 GMT -5
Post by Xombie on Jul 15, 2005 20:46:16 GMT -5
BTW you said you like stabing peoples hearts? Wow. You really do care dont you!
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My Love
Jul 16, 2005 0:29:38 GMT -5
Post by Elegey on Jul 16, 2005 0:29:38 GMT -5
no i dont and u know that what the hell im not dealing with this anymore im trying to suck it up and make things better but you just cant see it that way bye
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My Love
Jul 16, 2005 11:27:36 GMT -5
Post by Xombie on Jul 16, 2005 11:27:36 GMT -5
So you "deal" with this is by trying to hurt other people? Cheating on Charity? Lieing to your friends? And then saying that you never did any of it? Yeah I guess that is ONE way to "deal" with it. I think you need to stop thinking everything is so bad and that you are the one who has it the worse, and all this crap. Because you arent and I know you arent.
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My Love
Jul 16, 2005 12:10:12 GMT -5
Post by Elegey on Jul 16, 2005 12:10:12 GMT -5
I have been sitting here trying lke hell to show you im changing but no it is a pointless endeavor i guess if i change ill do it alone imm sorry u wont believe me
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My Love
Jul 16, 2005 12:35:34 GMT -5
Post by Elegey on Jul 16, 2005 12:35:34 GMT -5
Yeah im not angry at anyone i just wanna make things better *sighs*
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My Love
Jul 16, 2005 20:40:46 GMT -5
Post by crosswoman on Jul 16, 2005 20:40:46 GMT -5
you seem to hold a lot of anger in you anyway...
anger is depression expressed out loud. I think if you need and desire to make things better it will show in how you treat your self and others and the language you use and if it lifts yourself and other people up or down. Remember we cannot chose our situations be we can control our attitudes and how we deal with them. Instead of trying to show peole and tell people you have changed just do it...don't reexplain it just do it just be.
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My Love
Jul 16, 2005 20:47:50 GMT -5
Post by crosswoman on Jul 16, 2005 20:47:50 GMT -5
I know you hurt Charity and I am sorry you have hurt, but it will get better, time heals all things if you let it. Life is going to be full of heart aches as I said before you will have your heart broken many times... but you will also break a lot of hearts in these years as well. Smile not because of your situations but because you are worth it, you have today, you have now, you have this moment. It is your life...it does not feel that way, but it is. Suck out the full meaningness of life live like there is no tommorow. It is great to forgive and you will but in all honesty that will take time to. I know you will try and you will and you push your own emotions aside for the sake of friendship. But to say you truly forgive you will have to be at a place where it will no longer bother you and you will..almost...have forgotten the situation ever happened. But you will grow wise from this and not be foolish. I know you will do well with yourself. I can sense it. I do not know how but you live up to the name you were given and "smile"
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